Tonight marks the 6 month anniversary of my husband's death. Exactly half a year ago, I kissed my husband goodnight as he curled up next to me. About two hours later, his body started to convulse and within an hour he was dead. He was only 40-years old. He passed away right at the threshold of midnight, so I will forever see his death date as spanning two days and one night.
Anniversaries are brutal for sudden widows, not to mention any other survivor of the sudden death of a loved one, and hitting the half-year mark has been particularly painful. Time does not always heal. It can often feel like a thief in the night, who steals your loved one away from you - marking the days, weeks, months and then years that you are without them.
Since creating art and making is my spiritual practice, I have decided that I must return to making art every day around my grief. I have always really thrived with these kinds of daily practices, and I think this daily commitment will hold me in my grief as I get through these next 6 months. Now, that's not to say that I have not been creating over these past 6 months. You can see some of what I have created on my Instagram feed, as well as listening to my radio shows on Grief. But those moments have been sporadic and if I am to make it through these next 6 months, I really need a daily practice. So I am making a commitment, on this most important night, to my #6MonthsOfGrief Project.
|Rest in Power, My Beloved Bear|
6 Months of Grief Project
Every day, for the next 6 months, I will create and share one creative piece, every day. My favorite media in the past has included drawing, painting, photography, writing and my radio program. I also will be doing rituals, which always have a creative component to them. I will share what I create here, on my Instagram, Twitter, Facebook and Pinterest page on Grief, and I will use the hashtag #6MonthsOfGrief, so it can easily be found on any platform.
The project will have an arbitrary ending on the one-year anniversary of his death. I hope that I keep creating art long after that, but all projects like this need an end date and I hope that the last offering in this project is a one-year grief ritual, honoring this year of living with grief.
I welcome any kind of support or connection around this process. Connecting with other widows has been one of my life savers.