|Into the Spiral|
This is Week 31 of my Surviving Year Two Grief Project. Details about all my Grief Projects, as well as Grief Resources can be found here.
On "A Day Without A Woman," a co-worker gave all the women in the office a rose. She let us pick out the one we wanted from the beautiful array of colors and sizes that she had in her big bouquet. I was immediately drawn to the discolored, tightly closed rose. Its outside petals looked dark and almost moldy. It looked the way I feel. As the days passed, everyone's roses started to open, while mine remained closed up tight. I began to fear that I had picked a rose that was actually dead inside. When I expressed my fear to another co-worker, she immediately gave my rose a nice, gentle massage and it has since opened up a little, to reveal a beautiful light pink spiral inside.
This may be as far as it will open, but it is till breathtakingly beautiful to me. My healing process feels like this rose — it is taking its time, and there is great beauty in the process.
Thanks for witnessing me. See you next week.