Tuesday, June 21, 2016

6 Months of Grief Project: Day 137

No End in Sight

This is Day 137 of my #6MonthsOfGrief Project. To learn more about this practice, feel free to visit Day One, where I explain this project in more detail.

There is no end in sight to this grief. It fills my throat with burning hot ash and slices open my guts so they spill out in front of whomever I am standing in front of at the time. I embarrassedly scoop my innards back up and push them back into my body, mumbling "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." I try to sew myself back together with shaky hands and a rusty needle I found in an old box of my husband's things.

"Good job! Look how you sewed yourself back up!" people worriedly say, with their crooked smiles and sad eyes. A quick pat on the back and back to their lives. I understand. We are all facing our own grief and mine shines a beacon on other people's wounds with laser-like focus. I want to be one of those people who can spiritually bypass their grief, and just "get on with things." I don't want to live with this pain anymore. I can't live with this pain anymore.


I am very aware that this project can bring up a lot around yours or other's grief and loss, I will always follow every post with some online grief support resources that have helped me. Please feel free to let me know of online support that you have found healing in your grief, as well:

Living with Grief Resources:

And remember, I am sharing this project on a variety of platforms, including my InstagramTwitter, & Facebook feeds, as well as my Pinterest page on Grief. I use the hashtag #6MonthsOfGrief, so it can easily be found on any platform. Please share this project with anyone you think might need it.

Thank you, and see you tomorrow.

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