Tuesday, July 26, 2016

6 Months of Grief Project: Day 172

Seeing Me, Seeing You

This is Day 172 of my #6MonthsOfGrief Project. To learn more about this practice, feel free to visit Day One, where I explain this project in more detail.

My birthday weekend has ended. I have made another circuit around the sun. I have arrived at 44. I have now lived 4 years longer than my husband and that number will grow with each passing year. How did I get here? How did I get to this place of being alone again? My heart aches for his touch, his kisses, his big hand holding mine. Even though he drove me crazy sometimes, he also had a way of completely calming me down — something I am trying to do on my own now. When I have so much worry and anxiety and fear, about the future of my life and the future of our world, I miss his calming presence even more.

How do I make it another year without him? How do I grow old without him? What is the point of it all, anyway?

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I am very aware that this project can bring up a lot around yours or other's grief and loss, I will always follow every post with some online grief support resources that have helped me. Please feel free to let me know of online support that you have found healing in your grief, as well:


Living with Grief Resources:

And remember, I am sharing this project on a variety of platforms, including my InstagramTwitter, & Facebook feeds, as well as my Pinterest page on Grief. I use the hashtag #6MonthsOfGrief, so it can easily be found on any platform. Please share this project with anyone you think might need it.

Thank you, and see you tomorrow.

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