Wednesday, July 27, 2016

6 Months of Grief Project: Day 173


This is Day 173 of my #6MonthsOfGrief Project. To learn more about this practice, feel free to visit Day One, where I explain this project in more detail.

Once again, it's happening. The grief comes out of the blue and gut punches me. A song plays. I find a love note he wrote me, stuck in between the seats of my car. I look at the clock and it is ALWAYS reading 1:11, 4:44, 12:12. These moments shred me, and yet these moments also feel like direct messages from him, sending his love. I wasn't sure if he was with me, around me, near me. But these moments really feel like him. I want to just be in these moments and connect with him and feel the love and the joy of that connection, but mostly they make me cry and cry and cry.

"I think we need to embrace grief, rather than just accepting it, we need to make it valuable. It sounds weird, because pain is a new taboo, and we live in a world that keeps on telling us that suffering has no value. We’re always devising painkillers for any kind of aching. But sorrow is the other side of love, and it shapes us, defines us and makes us unique... Grief is affection, we can use it to keep the splinters together, and turn them into a jewel. Even more beautiful than before.” from "Death and Broken Cups" by Ivan Cenzi


I am very aware that this project can bring up a lot around yours or other's grief and loss, I will always follow every post with some online grief support resources that have helped me. Please feel free to let me know of online support that you have found healing in your grief, as well:

Living with Grief Resources:

And remember, I am sharing this project on a variety of platforms, including my InstagramTwitter, & Facebook feeds, as well as my Pinterest page on Grief. I use the hashtag #6MonthsOfGrief, so it can easily be found on any platform. Please share this project with anyone you think might need it.

Thank you, and see you tomorrow.

1 comment:

  1. But I don't want to be more beautiful than I was before. I just want him back.