Thursday, August 4, 2016

6 Months of Grief Project: Day 181

Scavenged Lotus

This is Day 181 of my #6MonthsOfGrief Project. To learn more about this practice, feel free to visit Day One, where I explain this project in more detail.

As we approach the end of this project and the one-year anniversary of my husband's death looms over me, it's like all the energy is being sucked out of my body. I am having trouble feeding myself and I'm not sleeping at all. I have been walking through this week like a zombie, hoping that I'm heading in the right direction, but having no ambition to actually figure it all out.

Friends are coming on Saturday to be around the fire and celebrate his life... and his death. I wish I could sit around that fire forever, until I too catch fire and burn up into ashes. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't like my life without him. I don't like myself without him. He saw the beauty and brilliance in me. How do I see that in myself? I don't know how to do any of this.


I am very aware that this project can bring up a lot around yours or other's grief and loss, I will always follow every post with some online grief support resources that have helped me. Please feel free to let me know of online support that you have found healing in your grief, as well:

Living with Grief Resources:

And remember, I am sharing this project on a variety of platforms, including my InstagramTwitter, & Facebook feeds, as well as my Pinterest page on Grief. I use the hashtag #6MonthsOfGrief, so it can easily be found on any platform. Please share this project with anyone you think might need it.

Thank you, and see you tomorrow.

1 comment:

  1. That's exactly how I feel. I don't know how to do any of this nor do I care to learn.