Tuesday, March 8, 2016

6 Months of Grief Project: Day 32

Tax Blues

This is Day 32 of my #6MonthsOfGrief Project. To learn more about this practice, feel free to visit Day One, where I explain this project in more detail.

The Widow Paperwork never seems to end. I've accomplished so much, and yet there is still so much more to do. Now that I have successfully filed for Bankruptcy. I can face the next huge task - filing our 2015 taxes. Not only did my husband and I run our own businesses, but my husband's passing makes filing taxes a lot more complicated. And because he died so suddenly, I have been on a 7 month odyssey of finding all the receipts and paperwork needed to do the taxes for his business. As I've said before, my husband was one of the least organized people I have ever met and there seems to be absolutely no filing system whatsoever to his paperwork.

So today, I set up my turquoise, knitted power station, and I have been organizing and filing and sorting and crying, because inevitably, I find some precious love note, or drawing I made him, that he carefully tucked away in a disorganized box that also has parking tickets and utility bills in it as well. It's a brutal journey, but my desire to get this huge task done is currently stronger than my depressed frozen state. I'm trying to keep moving forward, no matter how impossible the tasks feel most of the time.

How do you motivate yourself to get tasks done, when you are deep in grief?


I am very aware that this project can bring up a lot around yours or other's grief and loss, I will always follow every post with some online grief support resources that have helped me. Please feel free to let me know of online support that you have found healing in your grief, as well:

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And remember, I am sharing this project on a variety of platforms, including my Instagram, Twitter, & Facebook feeds, as well as my Pinterest page on Grief. I use the hashtag #6MonthsOfGrief, so it can easily be found on any platform. Please share this project with anyone you think might need it.

Thank you, and see you tomorrow.


  1. I put "15 minutes on [painful task]" on my to do list every day (or for some things, 5 minutes). That way I never had to do the whole task at once, and sometimes I ended up working much longer. If you don't use a list (I do because making one really cranks down my anxiety level) you could just say to yourself something like, "I only have to work on this for X amount of time."

    Love, Mareena

    1. This is great advice, Mareena. Thank you!